It’s been another year for you and I wish you a happy birthday! I know we’ve drifted apart and we can’t bring back what was once so tight but I just want you to know that I’m happy, because I met you and I was able to create wonderful memories with you.
We used to have tons of pictures together and I don’t know where they are now, I can’t seem to find them so I did my best to look for the once that are still there. So these are the only few that I’ve found from then until now. When I look at our pictures together, I feel weird, it feels like a long time ago when they were taken.
Sometimes I think of you whenever I feel down or when school gets tough and I wish, from time to time, for you to be there for me. Just like the old times, I wish we could be best friends again and I wish we could talk and laugh and share secrets and goof around all they long. I kept wishing impossible things.. I’ve been doing this for months now and I feel stupid for doing so. I have tons of things that I wanted to say to you but sometimes words aren’t enough.
I don’t know where will I go by making this up.. But there’s this thing I’m sure of, it’s that I miss you. Everyday. Sometimes it gets better but some days, it’s shitty as hell without you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you more than anyone in this world. I miss my best friend a lot.
I want you to be happy, I want you to feel loved. I want you to break free from your insecurities, I want you to find confidence in you because I see you as someone so much more, someone who can be so much better. Someone kind, brilliant and full of love. I hope you’ll stay happy wherever you are right now because you deserve it.
If I wasn’t able to tell you thank you back then, I guess I’d have to say it now. Thank you for everything, for making me laugh, for listening to my cries, for spending your time with me, for all the hugs I received from you, for taking care of me, for helping me with my studies, for being there all of the freaking time and for treating me so special. Thank you so much, I can’t be grateful enough because I once had you.
I was there on your 17th birthday, remember? I never thought, a year after, that I won’t be there on your 18th. One day, when all of our wounds are mended, when things aren’t so messed up anymore, when we’ll be better than before, when months and years have passed, one day, we’ll meet again. And when we do, when we do, when we do, I hope I’ll have you back as my best friend. I hope I will.
They say true friends last forever, right?
“How was your day?”
“Text me when you get home so I know you’re safe”
“How are you?”
“I hope you’re feeling better”
“Have a good day today!”
“I miss you”
“Can you come over?”
“Can I come over?”
“Can I see you?”
“Can I call you?”
“Want something to drink?”
“Watch your step”
“Let’s watch a movie”
“What are you up to?”
“How is your day so far?”
“It will be okay”
“I’m here for you”
“Do you need anything?”
“Are you hungry?”
“I just wanted to hear your voice”
“You just made my day”
You don’t have to hear “I Love You” to know that someone does. Listen carefully. People speak from the heart more often than you think.”
"We didn’t talk about anything heavy or light. We were just there together. And that was enough." —Stephen Chbosky
Day 7: Here’s to this one guy who has been my best friend and to this guy who has stayed by my side no matter how busy I’ve been with my life. I can’t thank him enough for surprising me with this 30 minutes before midnight. I’ve always wanted to eat Big Mac but I kept putting it off because I don’t want to spend my money on it. But wow, look at what I’ve got!!!! I kept wishing that someone would deliver me food at night while I’m busy studying and yes my wish came true! Thank you so much, Jon! For thinking of me everyday, well you mentioned it on your little note, and thank you for this, for the love and for the friendship! I couldn’t ask for more! I hope you’ll always stay the same, I hope we’ll never fade too. All my love!
I hope someday you will find me and you will remember what I once meant to you.
I knew beforehand that you gave it up already bc everyone does things like that, you know? I just don’t know what’s happening with my close friends right now. I think that we’re all making tons of wrong decisions nowadays. This sucks. I know we have to make mistakes to learn from them but sometimes it’s hard to take it all in, to know that I wasn’t there to persuade you to not do it or whatever. I can’t figure out how to act like what you told me doesn’t matter when in fact it does. Whatever my friends’ tell me will always be a big deal. I still hope things won’t change between us though but I guess my hopes are just for nothing.